Genesis 37:5
NOW JOSEPH HAD A DREAM, AND WHEN HE TOLD IT TO HIS BROTHERS,
THEY HATED HIM THE MORE.
Gen. 37:5
a lot of what God did in me last year as I sat in His presence, was to take the wrong ideas out of my mind. One of the ideas was "if I am a good christian, people will love me"
This is false.
The truth is: "the closer one walks with God, the harder it is for those around us to
relate, accept and love us."
I can see back and it has been true over and over again. Not only in my own life...I mean even Jesus was hated and persecuted. And there was a point in time that even his family thought he had gone crazy.
The closer one walks with God the bigger an offense one results to others. And it gets uncomfortable. This happens even within the church.
I have studied my own life experience and have found it to be "hard to accept" kind of reality. The very same thing that made me attractive to my ex-husband was latter the very same thing that made him hate me: my passion for God.
You see, my passion for God always makes me take a step farther...seeking to know Him more, to understand His heart better, to hear His voice -and later His very whisper. I did not care to settle for a church life or a ministry life...I want LIFE. So, as I moved on in my quest and as he settled for what he had in God a huge void was created between us. And as time went on people would see that I had fresh water and would seek me instead of him...and jealousy arose, and anger and hatred came forth.
Envy is a terrible sin it can lead you to kill...even your brother.
People acknowledge that you have something real in God. But envy will often be the result and then fights and hurting words come forth. So many times I have sat down to analyze what I have done wrong... and the answer has been "I have loved God"
I am not perfect. I sin...but now I am talking of this other side of the coin. The times when I haven't sinned, when I have loved and given and cared and prayed for...and have received hate instead of love.
Very dear people to me have hated me out of my love and passion for God.
Here at home we are living a time of strong tension. I look at God and wonder exactly how much He knows I can take. It is hard. It is not because I preach to them day and night. I do not. But there are things that cannot be avoided.
ie. they love to spend hours in front of the tv. I cannot. I no longer tolarate tv. When I got my tooth pulled out a week or so ago, I went to watch tv. My son walked in and said "MOTHER, you must be feeling really bad if you are watching tv!" (I was) and he went and bought me an ice-cream. My mom pointed out to him the fact that I was not really watching tv because I was watching History Channel.
But the tension has been strong. "You do not want to be with us"
Not only that so often after lunch when we have time to share and talk, I get up and leave...because what is said is not healthy for the soul. I get up in a nice way, I pick up the dishes and go and wash them. I try to be gentle. But everybody knows what is in my heart. "you feel better than us"
I love God. I cannot act as if everything were right. I do not watch tv. Just with the bit of information they give I can tell the amount of withcraft, lewedness and wrong moral values that they are absorving from tv. How am I supposed to smile? So I am quiet...but tension is in the air.
My son goes out on this trip to this place known all over Mexico for its withcraft. I do not say a word but everybody knows what is in my heart and how I worry and believe God is totally displeased. He arrives but does not come in my room to say hi. Tension is in the air.
Revelations 11:10 says:
AND THE INHABITANTS OF THE EARTH WILL REJOICE OVER THEM AND MAKE
MERRY; AND THEY WILL SEND GIFTS TO ONE ANOTHER BECAUSE THESE TWO
PROPHETS TORMENTED THE INHABITANTS OF THE EARTH.
What did the prophets do to make people so angry with them? They loved God, obeyed God and told people to repent.
The closer you walk to God the harder it becomes to walk with people, that is why prophets used to live in communities and now they are beginning to do the same. But not all prophets lived in communities. Jeremaih had to live among the people and he complained about it: "I wish I could live outside this city so as not to see the wickedness in it!"
Every person has a different story to write. For now I must stay with my family and try to learn how to move in the midst of accusation and envy...and I keep hope that they may become softer to the Lord, that they may incline their ear to wisdom
Joseph, he walked close to God...and had an extraordinary life- despite the hate of the ones he loved.
THEY HATED HIM THE MORE.
Gen. 37:5
a lot of what God did in me last year as I sat in His presence, was to take the wrong ideas out of my mind. One of the ideas was "if I am a good christian, people will love me"
This is false.
The truth is: "the closer one walks with God, the harder it is for those around us to
relate, accept and love us."
I can see back and it has been true over and over again. Not only in my own life...I mean even Jesus was hated and persecuted. And there was a point in time that even his family thought he had gone crazy.
The closer one walks with God the bigger an offense one results to others. And it gets uncomfortable. This happens even within the church.
I have studied my own life experience and have found it to be "hard to accept" kind of reality. The very same thing that made me attractive to my ex-husband was latter the very same thing that made him hate me: my passion for God.
You see, my passion for God always makes me take a step farther...seeking to know Him more, to understand His heart better, to hear His voice -and later His very whisper. I did not care to settle for a church life or a ministry life...I want LIFE. So, as I moved on in my quest and as he settled for what he had in God a huge void was created between us. And as time went on people would see that I had fresh water and would seek me instead of him...and jealousy arose, and anger and hatred came forth.
Envy is a terrible sin it can lead you to kill...even your brother.
People acknowledge that you have something real in God. But envy will often be the result and then fights and hurting words come forth. So many times I have sat down to analyze what I have done wrong... and the answer has been "I have loved God"
I am not perfect. I sin...but now I am talking of this other side of the coin. The times when I haven't sinned, when I have loved and given and cared and prayed for...and have received hate instead of love.
Very dear people to me have hated me out of my love and passion for God.
Here at home we are living a time of strong tension. I look at God and wonder exactly how much He knows I can take. It is hard. It is not because I preach to them day and night. I do not. But there are things that cannot be avoided.
ie. they love to spend hours in front of the tv. I cannot. I no longer tolarate tv. When I got my tooth pulled out a week or so ago, I went to watch tv. My son walked in and said "MOTHER, you must be feeling really bad if you are watching tv!" (I was) and he went and bought me an ice-cream. My mom pointed out to him the fact that I was not really watching tv because I was watching History Channel.
But the tension has been strong. "You do not want to be with us"
Not only that so often after lunch when we have time to share and talk, I get up and leave...because what is said is not healthy for the soul. I get up in a nice way, I pick up the dishes and go and wash them. I try to be gentle. But everybody knows what is in my heart. "you feel better than us"
I love God. I cannot act as if everything were right. I do not watch tv. Just with the bit of information they give I can tell the amount of withcraft, lewedness and wrong moral values that they are absorving from tv. How am I supposed to smile? So I am quiet...but tension is in the air.
My son goes out on this trip to this place known all over Mexico for its withcraft. I do not say a word but everybody knows what is in my heart and how I worry and believe God is totally displeased. He arrives but does not come in my room to say hi. Tension is in the air.
Revelations 11:10 says:
AND THE INHABITANTS OF THE EARTH WILL REJOICE OVER THEM AND MAKE
MERRY; AND THEY WILL SEND GIFTS TO ONE ANOTHER BECAUSE THESE TWO
PROPHETS TORMENTED THE INHABITANTS OF THE EARTH.
What did the prophets do to make people so angry with them? They loved God, obeyed God and told people to repent.
The closer you walk to God the harder it becomes to walk with people, that is why prophets used to live in communities and now they are beginning to do the same. But not all prophets lived in communities. Jeremaih had to live among the people and he complained about it: "I wish I could live outside this city so as not to see the wickedness in it!"
Every person has a different story to write. For now I must stay with my family and try to learn how to move in the midst of accusation and envy...and I keep hope that they may become softer to the Lord, that they may incline their ear to wisdom
Joseph, he walked close to God...and had an extraordinary life- despite the hate of the ones he loved.
posted by thisfool @ 7:09 AM
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